Before the Western & Southern Open, Azarenka’s last title came in 2016 (Getty Images)
Life and tennis all look differently to Azarenka now. The last seven years have repeatedly forced her off the fast lane she so savored. Injuries, motherhood, a child custody battle and demoralizing losses all turned Azarenka’s world upside down, compelled her to ponder a life without tennis and, eventually, reassess longstanding assumptions about her identity.
“When you’re coming up from kind of nothing,” said Azarenka, “then you become a No. 1 player in the world, sometimes you can start to think you’re invincible and that you’re better than everybody, and it’s not true. So the ego starts to grow. It’s very hurtful when it gets damaged.”
Oddly enough, those self-effacing comments came immediately after a grand Azarenka triumph. It was shortly past midnight at the USTA Billie Jean King National Tennis Center, and moments earlier, in the semifinals of the 2020 US Open, Azarenka had just defeated Serena Williams. It was the first time she’d beaten Williams at a major in 11 tries, a breakthrough earned not just because of considerable work on and off the court, but arguably fueled even more by Azarenka’s increased self-understanding.
“Instead of getting the ego damaged,” she went on, “I tried to remove that and learn from my mistakes of that ego, and realizing, maturing, that being a tennis player doesn’t make you better or worse than anybody else, that you’re still human, and all you can do is try to be the best version of yourself and keep improving.”
The win put Azarenka in the finals of a Grand Slam for the first time since 2013. Though she would lose in three sets to Naomi Osaka, Azarenka’s New York run, which included a title at the relocated Western & Southern Open, showed she could clearly compete with the game’s very best.
Open was very much the headspace Azarenka had entered during this year of global slowdown.
“When s* happens to you, you’re like, ‘Oh, let’s be positive, let’s be positive’—it’s sometimes impossible to be positive,” said Azarenka. “So being neutral, just not going into a negativity is very useful.
“It’s very simple. It’s very hard to do because it’s constant work, but it’s very, very useful. I feel like I started there. Then I started to shift into a better energy.”
“She’s clearly drawing from a new filing cabinet,” says Jeff Greenwald, a sports psychologist and author of the book The Best Tennis of Your Life. “You can tell when she’s speaking that she’s getting this Zen approach of acceptance and perspective and gratitude.”
Unquestionably, motherhood has made a major impact on Azarenka.
“She was a lot spikier before,” says Carillo. “There is nothing more humbling than becoming a parent. All of a sudden this nine-pound baby is the boss.”
The custody fight she waged for her son, Leo, amplified the reality that Azarenka’s focus is no longer strictly on herself. It’s hard to imagine her driving 100 m.p.h. these days.
“She wants to be a role model for her son,” said Jensen. “You play a match and you’re changing diapers. Life looks a lot different.”
We grow, but do we change? Lest you think the feisty Azarenka has ditched fighter for lover, consider how she juxtaposes motherhood with her full-time job.
“I don’t identify myself on the tennis court as a mother,” she said in New York, upon reaching the quarterfinals of a major for the first time since Leo’s birth. “I still identify myself as a tennis player. Me being in the quarterfinals, I didn’t get there by being a parent, I got there by being a tennis player.”